This is a little late...buuuut....

Konnor Lawrence
Born: November 18th at 9:28 PM

Oh Baby

I haven't updated this in forever. Well, that amazing guy I was seeing in my last post is now my amazing fiancee. And we are expecting our first child! Baby boy Konnor will be here November 14th!

I don't really know what else to say besides I love my life, and I consider myself very lucky :).

Spring Is Finally Here :)

I just thought I'd put an update up since I haven't in a little while.

My mom, sister and uncle scooter sent
me a box of peeps and cookies for Easter :)

I've been ridiculously happy lately. I'm seeing a really amazing guy.
& I can't stop smiling,.

Other than that life has been good all in all. I have about a month 'til graduation. I've been keeping up with my work, going out and enjoying the time I have left in Plattsburgh, and thinking a lot about my future.

Life is good lately, I couldn't be happier :).

Toubles will come, and they will pass

Graduation is in 47 days, but who's counting?

After 5 years.
One semester off.
Numerous friends that have come and gone.
One serious relationship and a few silly ones.
Many interesting decisions, some good and some bad.
130something credits.
Countless crazy nights.
Too much campus food.
I'll have my bachelors in Psychology.


Moving on...
I'm not going to lie, since December I've made a few terrible decisions. However, I've definitely learned from my mistakes & I think that's what really matters. I was naiive and could have gotten myself into a would of trouble. Luckily, everything shook out alright and I've climbed out of the ditch that I so willingly jumped into. Coming out of the daze that I was in, the one thing that I will say is...the next person to declare their love for me better actually mean it. Don't lie to me to get what you want, I don't think I deserve to be treated that way.

I'm not unhappy, not in the least...I'm excited for the future. I can't wait to mto experience whatever the future has in store for me. I know that it may not always be great, but I'm willing to except the bad with the good.

48 days

I can't wait to graduate.

People they come together, and people they fall apart

Ohh
I'm in an amazing mood for no reason what-s0-ever.

I have a bunch of studying to do.
I miss my family.
And my life is so ridiculous right now I wouldn't even know where to begin in explaining it all.



But, I can either choose to be happy...or sit around an mope about things.
So I'm choosing to be happy.
And that is that.

Goodbye January

Hmm, I felt like ending January with one final entry.
Life has been pretty ordinary lately. Nothing special, except for my new tattoo!



I had it done yesterday by Ryan at Body Art.
I couldn't be happier with it (well...maybe when the coloring is done on the 13th)

Other than the tattoo I've just been trying to get used to the classes I'm taking this semester.

Wow, I felt like typing when I started this....but not so much anymore.
That's all, I guess.

I just don't know.

Over the past few months I have learned several things about myself, and my family.

My sister is moving back to NY, basically ASAP. I think it's a terrible decision since she'll be forced to live with my father. I tried to explain to her that it's not a good idea, and the reasons why...but she doesn't seem to agree with me. I don't want her to have to go through what I went through with him, but I guess she has to learn from her own mistakes. The experience will benifit her in some way, I'm just not sure how quite yet.

I don't know how I'm going to get to see her, or when...but I'm terrified that we'll lose touch.

Things seem alright, and then something like this pops up and everything is shakey again.

I'm ready to go back to Plattsburgh and live a little.
I need it.

I don't know what I'm going to do when I graduate.
Crap crap crap.

WHAT?

Everyone is either engaged or pregnant.
Or both.

What in the world?!

You taste like a bad decision baby, you taste like fun.

I love this place & I almost can't deal with it at the same time.
When I'm here everything fades away, but there is plenty new to stress me out.

Old worries become forgotten,
and new flood in.

Moving down here will either be the best decision I've even made,
or the worst.


I miss Plattsburgh.
I miss my roomie.
I miss steffi
I miss crazy nights.
I miss sleeping in.
I miss learning [yes learning].
I miss hugs and kisses.
I'm impatient.
I'm ready to go back.
I'm scared I wont want it to end.

New tattoo soon.
Pictures will be on here after I get it.

Take heart, sweetheart, or I will take it from you.

I wish people would just drop the bull shit and be straight with everyone else all the time. Cut the crap people. If you have something on your mind, come right out with it...don't expect other people to know how you're feeling and what you're thinking.

I'm incredibly frustrated.
And very lost.

"Barely conscious in the door where you stand
Your eyes are fighting sleep while your mouth makes its demands
You laugh at every word trying hard to be cute
I almost feel sorry for what I'm going to do
And your hair smells of smoke
Who will cast the first stone?
You can sin or spend the night all alone"

A day late, a buck short

December 14th I'll be on a plane to South Carolina =]

I've been thinking a lot lately, maybe a little too much actually. That's not really anything new though, I tend to over think things. It's strange, I'm not sad...but I don't feel right either. I don't know exactly how to describe how I've been feeling lately...uneasy? Apathetic? Numb? Lost? Hopefully Thanksgiving break will give me a push out of this, either that or it'll just get worse.
This is the first major holiday that my family won't be together. Any traditions that we had left are gone...what now?

I miss being a kid. I miss going to my grandmothers house on the holidays, seeing all of my relatives. I miss playing ping pong with my cousins. I miss playing pretend games with them. I miss the big family dinners and the sing alongs. I miss my grandma.

And so it goes

I went to see Madagascar 2 randomly today.

And I loved it.

I'm planning out Thanksgiving break/Winter break, and I'm pretty excited. On November 25th I'll be in North Creek and I'm staying there for about a week. After that I have finals week, and then I'll be flying down to South Carolina on December 14th, or maybe the 15th...the details aren't final yet. Thanksgiving should be interesting, It'll just me my dad and me this year. I really can't wait for December either, I miss everyone down south so much.

I'm single again, and I'm not going to speak about this too much here. All I'll say is that I am frustrated with the situation and I'm not looking for another relationship for quite a while...and that's that I suppose.

With the exception of being ridiculously confused, life has been alright.

Yes, we can.

Anyone who knows me knows that I'm not generally too concerned with or interested in politics. This election has, without a doubt, made me more interested. I'm truely glad that Obama won the election. The more I read about him, and listen to his speeches, the more secure I feel that Barack Obama is going to get America back on track.

Other than the election, life has basically been the same. I'm contemplating what I'm doing for Thanksgiving break and Christmas Break. I don't know...I should just hibernate in my room.

I'm one pretty excited lady right now.
I decided to try to test out of Info tech and lit. annnnd I passed the proficiency exam.

I went to the interview that I had for the telephone answering service, and I got the job. However, I have to be trained...and their training is M-F next week from 12-4:30...and I can't miss classes Tuesday and Thursday...so I have to wait till they do a night training session.

Happy Halloween!!
.scarymoviesandcandyplease.

Just another Monday

Today was pretty exciting, well...in comparison to a normal day at school. I went to see Dr. Tooke about TAing for History and Modern Systems of Psychology, before I even got in the door he asked if that was what I was there for. Needless to say, I left his office with the TA position.

Not only did I get the TA position that I had been wanting, but I also may have a job. I applied for a position as a telephone agent [taking orders for items sold on TV and such], and I got a phone call about two ours after I filled out the application to set up an interview. On Wednesday I'm going in for an interview, and with any luck...I'll get a job.

I seriously need the $$. I want to possibly spend Christmas down south with my family, and buy my pretty car from Bryan eventually. I've been wanting to get a new car for a while [since the Geo has lost my interest]...and I love the car that Bryan is going to sell. Hopefully this job will come through and I can start saving up some ducks [or uhm...bucks...haha].

Annnd, I met with Dr. Gaeddart [my advisor] to go over my schedule for next semester. I need 16 credits to graduate. The only mandatory classes that I have are one upper level Psych course [Human Learning and Memory], A Global Issues course [Health], and then 9 credits worth of other courses. [Plus my info tech and lit. credit, which I'm going to try to test out of on Friday and my Senior Exam]. For the 9 other credits...I'm getting 3 for TAing the course I mentioned at the begining of my post, annnd possibly doing field work, plus taking some kind of child/family development course.

And that, is that.

I have my advisment meeting today. I'm pretty excited about it...I get to plan my schedule for my last semester of college as an under grad. It's hard to believe that I only need 16 credits, and then I'll be a college graduate.

I need: Human Learning and Memory, Info Tech and Literacy, Heath in Contemporary Society, and 3 other random classes for the credits. I think I'm going to speak to my History and Modern Systems professor and see if he needs a TA for next semester (since I have an A in the class, and I've TAed another class for him before).

Other then school, there isn't really too much exciting going on with me right now. Other than my new resolution to complain a whole lot less, and be thankful for what I have. I've kinda noticed that there are certain people that complain, constantly...and it just doesn't make much sense to me. Granted, sometimes in shitty situations complaining is understandable, but when you start complaining about the weather every day and it isn't even half bad outside, I think you need to take a break. To cut to the chase: People who complain every other time they open their mouth irritate me just a little bit.

Life is good. The shitty parts are there to remind us not to take things for granted, they're there for us to learn from. Embrace all of it...don't sweat the small stuff.